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Wow, my 100th post. Who'da thunk it.

I did not go to work today because of a stomach bug. I think the worst of it is over and I can go back tomorrow to finish up the week. Kinda sucks I'll be losing a day's pay because of it.. but what ya gonna do. When you're sick you have to take care of yourself.

I have been working on my CZ server and it's running the way I want it to now. For those into the tech-side of the whole CZ thing, I had a problem with amxmod admin access on the server. Seems that after the map changed a few times around with the bots running, I would lose amxmodmenu entirely. However, I found a fix for it - and now I have amxmodmenu all the time. Good deal. As far as my playing habits are concerned, I only play CZ on my server, I don't venture out to other servers anymore. Too much drama. Besides which, I never started having fun with CS/CZ anyway until I had my own setup. :-)

I'm also starting to pick up the habit of talking with old friends again. Feels good. At work I'm also getting new friends there also -- this is a good thing because where I werk, this is my "ilk" so to speak. Nothing but tech-heads, musicians and regular office-type people.

Some tidbits on blue-collar vs. white-collar (this should be a completely separate post, but whatever):

I am a white-collar person and have been since 1996 (officially). This means I work in the office. I do this every day. Ever since I've been in the office, I always notice the dirty looks given by the blue-collar people. It's unavoidable and inevitable no matter where you work. Contrary to what anyone would think, there is a large social difference between the blue and the white.

Fortunately for me I do have some credibility as a blue before I went to white, here's a few blue jobs I've had:

I've had summer jobs doing landscaping for cemeteries - not easy. Cemeteries are large and you can't just get on a ride-mower and cut all the grass like that. You have to go around each tombstone with a gas-powered trimmer and do each one manually, avoiding flower beds, small flags (for the buried military) and other things. It literally takes about 2 days to do a whole cemetery correctly. The hot summer sun does not make it any easier. If you don't think it's hard werk, try holding a gas trimmer all day. Your shoulder will be ready to fall off before the day is through. There isn't a soul alive who can wear something like that and not feel it at the end of the day.

I've also worked for UPS as a "driver helper", during the Christmas season (heaviest volume of the year). Anyone who would say "yeah, that's easy", try it. Imagine a delivery truck piled TO THE ROOF with packages with no set order whatsoever, of all sizes, shapes and weights. When you stop to make a delivery, you have to literally climb/swim through packages to find their package, sometimes 30 pounds or more. Then you have to usually climb up two (sometimes three) flights of stairs to get to the person. Half the time they aren't there, so you have to swing around before the end of the day and do it all over again. You also have to avoid angry dogs, pissy people who don't want to come to the door and lots of other "interesting" things about the job. Very demanding, and 100% physical - all blue. There are a few friends that have told me "that ain't nothin'" - sure, sure.. keep talkin'. You wouldn't last a day.

Now on to the white:

The largest difference between blue and white is mental stress. White has 10 times more mental stress than blue ever could. How do I know? I'll compare the UPS job above to my current job at the help desk:

UPS Driver Helper: Help driver deliver packages. Lift boxes and bring to the customer. Deal with pissy customers and dogs. That's it, there's nothing else to that job.

Help Desk Rep: Perform 100% phone support for a 10,000+ employee based company. Have intricate knowledge of Microsoft Windows backwards and forwards. Also know popular apps like Word, Excel, PowerPoint, Outlook, Access and so on. Have working knowledge of how a mainframe works. Know how to use a Meridian phone system, including how to transfer, conference, pick up, delegate, forward and so on. Must be able to type at least 50wpm (I do 75wpm). Must know how to use a Remedy Call Ticket System. Must know how to escalate procedures effectively. Must have a good customer service ethic and deal with every type of customer from plant worker to CEO. Have excellent documentation and phone skills. Must be able to troubleshoot LAN, Windows, Remote Access connections, some WAN, and..... (here's the kicker,) be able to resolve all your calls in 7 minutes or less, in rapid repetition - all day long.

There's actually about 20 more things I could put above, but you can immediately see the difference compared to the blue. Blue is all about simple directions for simple tasks that require physical action in order to perform them. White is all about complex directions for mutiple tasks that require mental ability in order to perform them.

I personally don't have any friends that can do my job, nor would they want to. Where I work, the turnover rate is so high that when someone actually stays for more than 6 months, they're considered a "veteran". I have seen people come in, work for a week - then quit. And I don't mean going to the boss and saying "I quit". It's "I'm outa here." They just leave and never come back (cowards!!)

If you should ever pose the question "Why do white-collars make so much more than blue-collars?", just examine the stress level - you tell me if you
could do it.


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Goin' to CZ

I contacted Recon Gamer today and am going to change the server over to CZ (Condition Zero). CS:Source was fun, but it's buggy and a little too demanding on the hardware requirements. It also (currently) doesn't have any support from HLSW. And let's not forget there's only one map. Bleah.

I know all this will change in September. HL2 will be released (which by the way I have absolutely no interest in playing or buying). CS:Source will be fixed by then because right now it's buggy as hell, more maps will come, HLSW will have support for CS:S.

But... even with all these things I know are coming, I'm still converting to CZ anyway. There are lots of maps, lots of mods, and the most important part: I know how to config a CZ server backwards and forwards. The HL2 CS:Source setup is nothing I couldn't learn, but I just don't want to have to relearn admin'ing a server all over again. Games are supposed to be fun.. but it ain't fun when you have no idea how your server operates. CS:Source, currently, is like that. There is little to no documentation on it. At least with CS/CZ, tons of documentation exists all over the 'net.

Documentation is gooood. (grin)



Linux not ready for prime time (for me)

I spent the better half of today and yesterday attempting to get Linux set up. Here's what I wanted to do: I wanted something simple. Just a KDE desktop I could remote to via TightVNC on SSH. Easy enough, right? Windows does it rather easily.

I tried three (yeah, three) flavors of Linux in an attempt to get this done. I tried SuSE, RedHat and Gentoo. All three installed fine. All three worked fine. All three SUCKED at SSH remote "Xvnc". It either worked somewhat, or not at all. Very disappointing. Granted, I know I said very nice things about Linux previously, but the one thing I needed to do was to get the remote VNC working properly. That one thing I couldn't get working. I must've installed and reinstalled Linux about 12 times trying to do this.

This was all very frustrating, because in addition to all the install/reinstall crap, I read a mountain of documentation and newsgroup postings stating "Yep! Works great!" No it doesn't. What is not mentioned is that it does work great going from Linux to Linux boxes, not Windows to Linux which is what I needed in the first place because I use a Win2000 PC at work.

If I didn't need to remote into the computer from werk, I would (for real) run Linux all the time with the KDE Desktop (never liked GNOME that much). Unfortunately, I gotta stick with buggy Windows to do what I gotta do (sigh).

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On a more positive note - I sent off the $191 today for the final (insert dramatic music here) payment on my car. YES! Can't believe that payment is finally coming to an end. It will be weird not having a car payment, but I'm sure that I'll get used to it real quick. (grin)