Yesterday sucked, no doubt about it. Being turned down for that job hit me hard. However, on the advice of a friend I will not let this get me down. Life obviously goes on, and part of this thing we call life is "the struggle". Some would say that life is nothing but the struggle, but that's another discussion entirely. :-)
At this point I am shifting directions (sort of). It may be possible that I find employment, and myself, in a completely new location. North is sounding really nice right now. South also doesn't sound too bad, either. As I've been saying for 5+ years, I am getting out of Connecticut. I want to. I have to. This state can really drag you down.
Yesterday after I got home, I was recited the speech from a friend of mine who lives in Maine. He basically told me what I already knew: I need to leave and go where I will be happy. And in short, that is anywhere but here.
It is true that sometimes the difference between here and there doesn't exist. In my situation, "here" is Connecticut, "there" is elsewhere. Many people get into the situation where their "there" becomes another "here", with the same problems, same crap, same everything. I honestly don't believe I fall into that category. My "there" will truly be a place which is different and is something worth shooting for.
The only mystery that remains now is... will I be going North or South?
Today I experienced what had to be the shortest meeting of my life today. This was concerning that web solutions job I was talking about earlier. In short: I was told I didn't get the job in a meeting that lasted 2 minutes. Very upsetting, I thought for sure I had a shot at getting it.
So.. it leaves me to think that maybe I wasn't meant to get this job. Maybe I was meant to do something else. Whatever it is, I hope it happens soon, and I hope that all will be well, because right now I feel horrible.
I can attest with all certainty that Crest Vivid White toothpaste actually works. I've been using it for a while now and noticed today "Hey, my teeth really are getting whiter". I've been using whitening toothpastes for some time now and have tried just about every one of them. The Crest (combined with the Crest SpinBrush Pro) actually does something you can see. How many shades whiter are my teeth now? I have no idea, it's not like I have a chart or whatever. It is noticable though. Very noticable.
My daily routine of brushing would make most people wince. It takes literally about five minutes to do. First, I brush. Fronts, backs, gums (top and bottom), tongue, roof of mouth. Then, I floss. Then, I swish and gargle Cool Mint Listerine -- that's the part most people can't do. Every morning when I do it, I shed a tear or two from the sheer intensity of it.
It's the Listerine gargling part that will make you cry because it literally puts what feels like a burning sensation in your mouth when you do it - but you do know it's working. A girl I once knew watched me do it and saw the tears come out, to which she said "How can you do that..." My answer: "Does my breath stink?" "Nope", she said. :-)
Real men gargle Listerine. (grin)